So I want to live on a ranch and have my husband herd the cows and ride in the pasture. I want to cook overlooking the beautiful view from my front porch and making the most delicious meals ever. After a long days work I want my children to gather around the table enjoying each others company, laughing, talking, and stuffing our faces. I have visions of this in my head. I read blogs and see pictures of this happy life. This picture perfect life. I am not saying my life doesn't have its perfect moments because it does but, reality sets in and I am not sure if my life will ever look like that...ever. I say this to the part of my children laughing and talking not about owning a ranch and overlooking a green pasture. Hell, I live on the surface of the sun. Heaven knowns life will never look like that. I could imagine the monsoon's rolling across the desert. Or a hot wind sweeping across my sweaty face :). Thats more like it now! All I know I want, is my children to enjoy our family and talk about it. I love them and my family so dearly.